I just want to feel the love I deserve because I'm a good ass person.

I just had a good conversation with my mama for like thirty minutes. We talked about our assumptions about whether or not Gijeong ends up with Taehoon in the last two episodes of My Liberation Notes drama. I told her that I can feel Gijeong's pain as I can very much relate to her situations.

We can't compare their personal struggles, but I must say that I don't think I'm okay if Gijeong's ending isn't full of love. Gijeong deserves a happy ending. Well, every character in the drama deserves a well-written happy ending, I believe so.

However this time I'm gonna talk about Gijeong. I always believe Gijeong deserves a better life. It's not just Mijeong who needs a life partner. They both deserve great life partners as I know they're strong women. Strong enough to get up again after embracing all the pain.

Changhee's life as the only son in the family also tough, but I believe he shall adapt and become a leader soon since if he's gonna marry someone, he should be able to lead the family towards a greater life which awaits them in the future. Changhee will work things out.

It's kinda different story for Gijeong and Mijeong. The only thing Gijeong wants is to feel loved, to be in love, and to start a family. But it's hard. As we all might have known, being in love goes both ways. To be fully committed to something and someone also needs courage.

We can't just simply love somebody and expect them to love us in return. They probably shower us with so much love. However, will they be able to commit? What if we asked them to marry us? We never know the answer because everything needs to start with a good connection at first.

I always scared of imagining things and putting my hopes too high. That's why it breaks my heart whenever Gijeong cries in the drama. Mijeong's pain is more like inner struggle as she still doesn't get it why she can't feel happy. She feels like there's a big hole in her chest.

Meanwhile, Gijeong understands her heart, her pain, and her situations. She knows that she can't be happy just by having money and a great reputation. She needs a life partner. She wants someone to stay beside her, walking side by side with her. She is longing for a pure love.

She can't achieve it only by herself. She wants to be free but she can't, because this struggle needs someone else to help her achieving the goals. She has to meet someone who understands and loves her just the way she is. It's hard, isn't it? Yes, that's why she struggles a lot.

Moreover, she's almost forty. At first, I thought Gijeong is still immature despite her age, but it turns out she's ready to love, ready to be in love, and even ready to start a family. Her cranky behavior is just how she tries to cope with the feelings she's holding inside her chest.

As I've stated in the beginning, I can very much relate to her. I mean, who doesn't want to be in love and of course to be loved in return. I want it all. I want to be in love. Nonetheless, I can't just simply love somebody and expect them to give me the same amount of love.

We all might have gone through the same phase like Gijeong in this lifetime, at least once. Even so, just remember you deserve to be loved the right way and for all of the right reasons. You deserve to be treated right without having to ask for it. You deserve to be truly happy.

As for me, the kind of love I have to give out and the level of commitment I possess is the reason why I'm not settling. I want to just give and give for all my life. No lies, no deceit, no delays, no games. I just want to feel the love I deserve because I'm a good ass person.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.