876 ㅡ The conversations with the right people.

There are some things in life so beautiful that you can do over and over again without ever getting sick of it. Like that cup of coffee, you drink every morning without fail, or how fascinating it feels every time you see the sky turn into pretty colors, or the conversations you have with the right people. The people you can talk to about anything at any time and you just never seem to run out of things to talk about.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

875 ㅡ I know this sounds fake.

I know this sounds fake, but your life really can be whatever the heck you want it to be. It starts from eliminating the things you've been repeating but you don't even care about it anymore. Eliminate people you no longer want to hang out with. Eliminate eating foods that make you feel like shit after. Eliminate that job you've been wanting to quit for months. Start doing things that you've never done before. Otherwise, your life will never change. Try out your idea of making art and selling it on the internet. Book that flight ticket to the place you've always wanted to visit. Move to a new city. Sign up for a course. Reach out to that person you like, but talked yourself out of saying hi. It's all an accumulation of not doing the things you dislike and doing more little things that makes you excited. If you keep doing that, your life will slowly become what you want.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

874 ㅡ This is the mistake you're making.

This is the mistake you're making. You're focusing too much on your backup plan and too little on what actually makes you happy. You're letting the opinion of others dictate your life when they are just supposed to be mere guidelines. You're giving in to your irrational fears. Things you know are simply not as scary as they seem, if you would just give yourself some time to think deeply and process them. At the end of the day, you've got one life. You can either spend it telling yourself to wait a little longer before you try out the things you have in mind, or you can actually go out and do your best to live it.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

873 ㅡ On a search to find out what existing means.

People are too caught up with other people's problems, and too little attention spent on what gives them fulfillment.

If something inspires you, you would immediately know and you wouldn't have to tell yourself that. When you have to convince yourself that this is what you want, then you definitely know it's not what you actually want.

On a search to find out what existing means, it seems to me that there is no bigger purpose than simply enjoying the moment you're in.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

872 ㅡ Nothing makes sense and nothing has to.

Writing little pieces of notes helps to keep my sanity. 

Going through cycles of the people you love and the ones that love you, mismatched. It is the hardest thing to let go until you find the next thing that excites you, and in the end you finally can forget all about it.

I've been around the world and back, and it's funny how simplicity is still what I yearn for the most. Nothing makes sense and nothing has to, if you stop adding questions to your existence.

It is when you are most vulnerable that you learn everything about yourself. Too many people I know has found fake meaning, preaching about the lessons they learned while they avoid all the difficult questions.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

871 ㅡ At least I'm no longer disappointed.

I remember the day I realized that I don't need anyone. I have myself and that is enough for me to make all the good I want happen for myself.

Disappointments come from expectations. I wondered for a long time if I was asking for too much, although the thought of that felt comical for someone who lived their entire life feeling like everything was missing.

The day I realized I don't need anyone, I exchanged disappointments for loneliness. I chased after what I want and achieved it all alone with no one to celebrate with.

But hey, at least I'm no longer disappointed.

I know life isn't meant for you to do it all on your own, but let me bask in it a little longer. I'd still very much rather take in this emptiness than have to ache anymore.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

870 ㅡ To have the love you always dreamed of.

You deserve to have the love you always dreamed of. The kind of love that makes you want to be a better person. The kind of love that makes you happy and the kind of love that makes you feel safe because you got used to loving the ones who only introduced you to danger and heartbreak.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

869 ㅡ To remember everything you forgot about love.

You deserve to remember everything you forgot about love. You deserve someone who doesn't get tired of reminding you what you mean to them and what they'd do for you.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

868 ㅡ To remember how it feels to be loved.

You deserve to remember how it feels to be loved and be truly cared for. You deserve to be with someone who makes you forget about every ignored message, every unanswered call, and every person who couldn't love you.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

867 ㅡ You deserve to be loved for who you are.

You deserve to be loved for who you are. With your flaws, with your quirks, with your imperfections. You deserve to be with someone who doesn't make you afraid of being yourself. You deserve to be with someone who sees all the parts of you and chooses to love them and chooses to stay.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

866 ㅡ Messages that are heartfelt and genuine.

You deserve to wake up to beautiful messages every morning. Messages that are heartfelt and genuine. Messages that only someone who truly knows you can send and messages that let you know that you're the first person on someone's mind each and every day.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

865 ㅡ I always see my life as a big puzzle.

I always see my life as a big puzzle that I am trying to piece together. Except that the puzzle picture expands as I am putting it together because I am also growing so much at the same time. And I find myself having more and more pieces that I gotta put together. And sometimes the pieces stop fitting because I've outgrown them so I need to eliminate pieces that no longer fit. And that whole routine of putting pieces together and eliminating pieces at the same time in an ever-growing puzzle is my life.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.