880 ㅡ To find someone who never gets enough of you.

You deserve to find someone who never gets enough of you; and reminds you that there is no such thing as loving too much because they're willing to love you just as much, and maybe more.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

879 ㅡ How to get better at something.

How to get better at something:

1. Embrace the fact that you are not good at the thing you want to be good at. Or at least, not yet.

2. Everyone starts from 0. To be good at something, you first need to start. And right here is a good place to start.

3. Stop comparing yourself to someone else's process. Maybe they are better than you. Maybe they are not. It literally does not matter. This race is yours and yours alone.

4. Start. But this time, actually start.

5. Keep doing what you know you gotta do. Keep doing what you know you gotta do. Keep doing what you know you gotta do.

6. Intensity is not important. Being good at something does not mean going from 0 to 100 very quickly.

7. Consistency is important. It does not matter how little or how much you do. It matters that you do it every day, or as often as you can.

8. The most important days are the days where you don't feel like doing it. It is easy to do something when you feel like doing it, but the days where you don't want to, and still do it because you know you need to, are the days that change everything. If you can still move forward even when everything around is holding you back, you will be unstoppable.

9. Keep doing what you know you gotta do.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

878 ㅡ To remember everything you knew about love.

You deserve to remember everything you knew about love; before you fell in love with those who made you forget. You deserve to remember that you were never the problem, that you've always been too much for the wrong ones.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

877 ㅡ I was a child when I wanted to leave.

I was a child when I wanted to leave. I always wanted to live anywhere in the world. I just wanted to get out of here.

Fifteen year old me couldn't do shit, didn't know shit. All I knew was that I didn't want to spend my life in this box. There is a big world out there and I want to see it.

The process feels like a long time when your day to day looks the same. Someday I will make it out. Life is not meant to be lived in one place.

Time takes time, and it's funny when I think about it sometimes how that one little idea you had when you were a kid becomes a part of you when you grow up permanently.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

876 ㅡ The conversations with the right people.

There are some things in life so beautiful that you can do over and over again without ever getting sick of it. Like that cup of coffee, you drink every morning without fail, or how fascinating it feels every time you see the sky turn into pretty colors, or the conversations you have with the right people. The people you can talk to about anything at any time and you just never seem to run out of things to talk about.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

875 ㅡ I know this sounds fake.

I know this sounds fake, but your life really can be whatever the heck you want it to be. It starts from eliminating the things you've been repeating but you don't even care about it anymore. Eliminate people you no longer want to hang out with. Eliminate eating foods that make you feel like shit after. Eliminate that job you've been wanting to quit for months. Start doing things that you've never done before. Otherwise, your life will never change. Try out your idea of making art and selling it on the internet. Book that flight ticket to the place you've always wanted to visit. Move to a new city. Sign up for a course. Reach out to that person you like, but talked yourself out of saying hi. It's all an accumulation of not doing the things you dislike and doing more little things that makes you excited. If you keep doing that, your life will slowly become what you want.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

874 ㅡ This is the mistake you're making.

This is the mistake you're making. You're focusing too much on your backup plan and too little on what actually makes you happy. You're letting the opinion of others dictate your life when they are just supposed to be mere guidelines. You're giving in to your irrational fears. Things you know are simply not as scary as they seem, if you would just give yourself some time to think deeply and process them. At the end of the day, you've got one life. You can either spend it telling yourself to wait a little longer before you try out the things you have in mind, or you can actually go out and do your best to live it.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

873 ㅡ On a search to find out what existing means.

People are too caught up with other people's problems, and too little attention spent on what gives them fulfillment.

If something inspires you, you would immediately know and you wouldn't have to tell yourself that. When you have to convince yourself that this is what you want, then you definitely know it's not what you actually want.

On a search to find out what existing means, it seems to me that there is no bigger purpose than simply enjoying the moment you're in.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

872 ㅡ Nothing makes sense and nothing has to.

Writing little pieces of notes helps to keep my sanity. 

Going through cycles of the people you love and the ones that love you, mismatched. It is the hardest thing to let go until you find the next thing that excites you, and in the end you finally can forget all about it.

I've been around the world and back, and it's funny how simplicity is still what I yearn for the most. Nothing makes sense and nothing has to, if you stop adding questions to your existence.

It is when you are most vulnerable that you learn everything about yourself. Too many people I know has found fake meaning, preaching about the lessons they learned while they avoid all the difficult questions.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.

871 ㅡ At least I'm no longer disappointed.

I remember the day I realized that I don't need anyone. I have myself and that is enough for me to make all the good I want happen for myself.

Disappointments come from expectations. I wondered for a long time if I was asking for too much, although the thought of that felt comical for someone who lived their entire life feeling like everything was missing.

The day I realized I don't need anyone, I exchanged disappointments for loneliness. I chased after what I want and achieved it all alone with no one to celebrate with.

But hey, at least I'm no longer disappointed.

I know life isn't meant for you to do it all on your own, but let me bask in it a little longer. I'd still very much rather take in this emptiness than have to ache anymore.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.