I break myself, just so I can stop walking towards you.

I do not know whether or not this is the best for us, but I need some time to think and analyze.

You might have realized already, I would stay away from you, like precisely once every month. I would take some time to enjoy my time; not replying to any of your messages.

You did not break any piece of me. I break myself, just so I can stop walking towards you. I do not want to blindfoldedly hoping to be by your side every time I am feeling blue. I do not want to feel any pain caused by my very own recklessness. I am selfish. Very selfish.

I do not understand my own feeling.

How am I supposed to face you?

I get it that we are just friends.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.