I hope it ends soon.

I have been avoiding you these past few days. I have to admit, I have been feeling down for no reason. Out of the blue, I suddenly started feeling blue, to the point that I do not know how to handle it. I thought, I could commit to something serious with you. But, I cannot.

No, you are never mine to begin with. Yes, you are always that one call away. We are just connected by words and maybe hearts. How do you think I could fall for you? No, it cannot be. Yes, but I do feel like you are a great friend. Or something more than that.

I have been there. I have been there; dreaming of a healthy relationship where all I do is just caring and loving all day. I have been there; thinking that I might never love again, because my heart has been broken quite a lot. I have been there; assuming maybe we could end up together.

Well, we are never ever meant to be together. Do you not realize that we are always so far away from each other? We keep on walking through this endless road, which I cannot predict when it is gonna end.

Will it really end?

It will end, right?

I hope it ends soon.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.