He hurts me.

I had a conversation with myself on my way home from work this evening. In the car while listening to my favorite song, I remembered my relationship with a high school friend. He holds a very special place in my heart.

Well, I have been secretly loving him for eight years.

I told myself that I am done with him. I have cut him off and I will never give him any chance to connect with me again in the future. I asked myself the reasons. No, I do not think I can say it. Actually my heart does not want to talk about it anymore since it hurts.

However, I feel like I cannot just simply say that we do not match and I am done with him. It does not make any sense. Thus, I said, "How can he love me when he does not know how to love himself?" and then I explained everything. That he disrespects me.

He hurts me.

Sincerely yours,

Senjakala.